When I left, I left behind some demons, hoping they would get lost or forgot. Overall, the decisions were the most unselfish act that I could have done, but now with all the turn arounds, I just can't avoid thinking about it. Actually I guess there was never a single day that I stopped thinking about it. And I want to let it go. I need to. As much it is gone, it is still here. And I can't help it. I guess there will be a part of me that will always wonder.